As I have come to know Jesus over the last couple years, He
has begun to change my heart regarding many things. One of those things is caring for the poor
and the oppressed. As I mentioned in an
earlier post, seeing poverty in Ethiopia hit me hard. It messed me up for months. Now I’m at least able to think about it
somewhat rationally, without being completely overcome with emotion, but I hope
I never lose the ache in my heart when I recall what I’ve seen.
After our second trip to Ethiopia in March, Rob and I began
praying and talking about what we could actually do to help. We have sponsored a little girl in Ethiopia
through World
Vision for the last 3 years, but it seemed like God was calling us to
more. As I thought about it, I realized
there were no shortage of organizations to support; if we wanted to just give
money to an organization to make ourselves feel better, it would have been
easy. And yet, I couldn’t shake the
feeling that He had a unique opportunity for us.
One day, as I was thinking about our trip to Ethiopia in
March, I realized what our opportunity was.
Before we took placement of our daughter, we were able to travel to
Gondar, where she was born, to visit the orphanage where she lived for 3
months. Bridge of Hope was
amazing. The kids we saw were happy and
well cared for. The housing was
certainly adequate and each house even had its own garden. They also have a café that they run to earn
money to support themselves. I later ran
across this video that
also shows how they even support at-risk kids in the community. Bridge of Hope is doing wonderful
things. But as we learned while we were
there, although they have many ways to support themselves, they still need
donations. And specifically, children need
sponsors. As Rob and I thought and
talked about it, we realized this was at least one opportunity we had to do our
part in helping fight poverty. However,
we were kind of at a loss as to how we could really do that since we were down
to one income and had just added a member to our family.
Shortly thereafter, we were in church one Sunday and our
pastor was preaching out of Luke
12. His actual sermon was taken from
verses 13-21, pertaining to the Rich Young Fool. I believe the sermon was about hoarding – or
at least that’s what I got out of it – but it was what Jesus said in verse 21
that really caught my attention:
“So is the one who lays up treasure for himself and is not rich toward
God.”
And I thought to myself, “what does He mean to be ‘rich
toward God?’ I have no idea.” So I kept reading. In verses 22 through 32, He talks about how
we shouldn’t be anxious, but instead trust the Father for our needs –
particularly our physical needs for food and clothing. And I thought, “OK, I get that, but I’m still
not understanding how I should be rich toward God.” And then I got there:
“Sell
your possessions, and give to the needy. Provide yourselves with moneybags that
do not grow old, with a treasure in the heavens that does not fail, where no
thief approaches and no moth destroys. For where your treasure is, there will your
heart be also.” (Luke 12:33-34)
Oh.
But unlike The
Rich Young Ruler’s response (and frankly, my own response any other time
I’ve read this), I didn’t walk away sad, I finally said, “YES!!” What the Holy Spirit
said to me that day was that I was
hoarding my possessions. We have plenty – way more than we need – and we could
sell many of our possessions so that we had money to sponsor a child at
Bridge of Hope.
And so we started the process of selling some of our
possessions. Rob was able to sell his
PS3 within a couple days of us making the decision; then we sold all of
Lottie’s outgrown clothes and gear at a large consignment sale; and then we had
a garage sale where we sold lots of other stuff. We still have several things to sell – some
books and electronics that we think we can get more money through other avenues
– but the Lord was faithful to allow us to sell almost every single thing we
have attempted to sell.
So, in addition to really
learning that the Lord would be faithful to complete that which He has begun, I also learned how
stinkin’ materialistic I really am. As I
went through the process of going through my possessions, not to simply
de-clutter, but to assess what I really
needed, my hoarding heart was exposed.
For those of you who know me, you might be surprised at this. I used to have a family member who was a bit
of a hoarder. When compared to her, I
could never be called a hoarder, but with every decision, every piece of
clothing put in the “sell” pile, I began to feel more and more raw,
exposed. I had come face to face with
the fact that I found comfort, security and maybe even status, in my
possessions. It was then that the rest
of Jesus’s words began to sink in:
“Provide
yourselves with moneybags that do not grow old, with a treasure in the heavens
that does not fail, where no thief approaches and no moth destroys. For where your treasure is, there will your
heart be also.”
See, I thought that we were just going to sell some extra
possessions so that we could give to those who were in need, but the Lord knew
my heart, and He knew what needed to be done.
He exposed my idolatry – because let’s call it what it is. If I found comfort in my stuff, then I wasn’t
finding comfort in Him. And that’s
idolatry. One of many idols in my life,
I suspect.
And that’s really just the beginning of the story, I
think. We still have lots of stuff in
our house – lots of stuff I’m emotionally attached to, but rarely – if ever –
use. There are still idols,
friends. I can’t tie a pretty bow on
this and tell you that the Lord has cured me of materialism and I’ll never be
materialistic again. But it’s a start
and He’s working on it.
So how about you? Do
you find yourself, like me, storing up treasure which can be stolen, and moth
and rust destroy? How has the Lord
taught you about storing up treasure in Heaven?
So interesting...last week we were taking some stuff to donate at "my" childrens home and I was having a hard time letting go of some stuff because of the sentimental attachments. Your older buddy told me I had to let go because we dont use them or need them and they would mean so much where we take them. It was not easy...but I didnt think of it as idolatry until now. Thx for sharing
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